How connected are you to your inner-self? Would you say that you are very connected, or very little connected? When you think of your inner-self, do you consider it complete, full, or do you feel that something is missing? For the most part, I feel pretty good about my connection. I can usually see when I am acting seperate from my true self and need to connect to make good decisions, but I wish I could dissolve this difference that I feel between the two.
When I am connected to my true self, the self inside myself, the self that is always there and pure; I feel happier and more content than I have ever felt before. Butterflies come over me and I feel gloriously happy. This feeling may only last one minute (maybe even seconds), but it is what keeps me going. The ego (the mind) keeps us from staying connected. We are distracted continuously and we must work to keep the focus on what is true, instead of the illusion of what is true. The person we are inside of our body is the person that we really are. So why is it so hard to stay connected to it? Meditation can get us there, yoga can get us there, doing what you love and staying true to yourself can also get you there; but we must work on keeping it.
We are here on planet earth for a reason. We have a body and mind for a reason. Do you know what your reason is? I believe we are here to learn. Learning incompasses so many things. What we are here to learn depends on the individual, but the journey is the same…learning. Making mistakes and learning from them. Making choices and learning from them. Learning that you have concequences for your actions and making the correct choices to avoid those consequences. That is life. That is what we are all here to do. The closer our connection to our true self, the easier it is…so why do we fight it?
Why do so many of us(and myself included at times) fight connecting to our inner-self? What are we afraid of? Maybe our inner-self, the knowing self, already knows what we are here to do and we are subconsciously afraid of that. Maybe our mission isn’t easy (how could you learn if it was) and maybe we are afraid to know what we are about to put ourselves through. Maybe the learning we are here to do is to get through all of life’s challenges and come out finding our true self. Maybe that is the experience after all? Is that it? Is that all? That sounds easy enough…right? Meditate for hours on end and find inner and outer peace - right? If it was that easy we would all be doing it, but it’s not. And I think that’s how it’s supposed to be. If it was easy, would we do it? No, the ego would take it for granted and would assume “been there, done that!” and we would move on to the next thing, the next challenge.
So life is a challenge. It is hard. I wish it was easy, but if climbing a mountain was easy you wouldn’t feel so great when you reached the top. I am striving to reach the top of my mountain. I want to climb it and find my inner peace and hold on to it for as long as I can, but when I lose it, I want to take the journey and find it again. I will continue to do this as long as it takes to shorten up the length of time between finding me and me. I will keep working, because I’m living and I wouldn’t have it any other way 
Love to you!
